Sunday, July 18, 2010


Well its official I am 31! Woo.
Whats the point of a birthday?

Saturday, June 19, 2010


Well... I have lost my 4th job in 3 years this time (I was really laid off) I am pretty sure I will no longer be talking to my parents anymore and I feel like I can't do a thing right. All I can really say is sigh.
I have no question today.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

I have lost it......AGAIN

For those who know me this is nothing new. I got laid off. I have 2 more weeks of work then I have too start over yet again. What has me pissed is that society has lost its way. I blame libertarians and tea baggers. Humans are not solitary creatures we depend on each other to survive and grow. We should not be trying to hold on to our jobs. I think we should think about how we as a group can get through the hard economic times.
That is all GRRRRR!

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Its been awhile

So it has been a while since I last blogged. I guess I have not really had a lot to say. I have been filled with regret about how I have handled things in my past but, those thoughts are a normal day for me in my head. I have been thinking a lot about life and what makes a life good and what makes life bad. Its a strange thing to start breaking down how you have lived and trying to quantify it like that is almost impossible. I guess its the classic question about the chicken or the egg. Do you make life good or does life make it good.
Something that did get my attention the other day was the question of what is a good solution to a problem? Should we always react to a problem with what we see as the most obvious solution? I tend to think the most obvious solution has gotten us into trouble. I think we see things to black and white and the older I get the more gray I began to see.
I there an absolute truth?

Sunday, May 9, 2010

What do you mean this comes to an end?!

It has been a while since my last post. The family has been dealing with many issues mostly relating to our dogs Bonnie and Mingus. Bonnie has a urinary track infection and hookworms. Mingus has broken through a window and has some kind of rash that we have to take him in for. Along with that I put up a new fence with the help from my friend Al and I am in a new band called Echo Bubble.
We had my folks over last night for Mothers day and I got smacked with mortality. My parents persented me with their wills and health directives. It was a comfort and scary at the same time. It made me think about my own life and, how I will die some day. VERY SCARED OF DEATH! I would make a deal to live for ever if that really was an option. The thought of just not being anymore freaks me out.
All these thoughts about death and life brought me back to one thing music. I started thinking about how music has changed me and, how certain albums make me think about my life. One of those albums is "Blood on the tracks" by Bob Dylan. I feel like every song on that album makes sense to me and, certain times in my life. I have felted like I needed shelter from the storm and, needed comfort from a women. I have also thought about how life is has just been a simple twist of fate for me. I think everyone can relate to these themes but, they really hit home for me. I have a couple of other albums that I feel that strong about but, I will not be posting them all today.
With all these thoughts I have thought about what I want when I give up my ghost. Mostly silliness. A side bar I'm not planning on dieing for the next 40 years or more so everyone needs to just relax. I have just been thinking about it lately. I can't decide between "ride it big and tall" or "You can't say I didn't try" for my head stone. Both funny and both very much me. The other quote I think I will use for my autobiography and that would be "Tired and Horny" The Tony story. I made a joke the other day about how I want to be stuffed and movable like an action figure when I die. I think that it would be funny if I had a motion sensor in me that would trigger "I won't back down" by Tom Petty every time you walked by my stuffed body. I think that would be hilarious! Maybe its a little sick but, a little funny.

How would you like to be remembered?

Saturday, April 17, 2010


Sunday, April 4, 2010

Easter and other thoughts on a Sunday Morning.

So it is Easter and I am at work. This in is not a bad thing or a good thing it is just a thing. This is the first Easter that I can remember that was not planned or talked about before hand. Its kind of nice. Easter makes me wonder about religion and life. Granted I am not a scholar on the subject but, the major religions seem so close together. I find it hard not to think that each religion is a variation on a theme. The theme being basically the Golden rule do on to others that you would like to have done to you. So why is that people feel the need to kill each other because some one was a prophet and one things he was god. How can you identify god? I still have the belief that Jesus was a pot smoking hippie that decided to help people and, because he was so open and loving to all people got scared and killed him. I really have a hard time with this idea that we as humans can recognize god. I just feel like the way that we see god is when we die.
Do you believe in a higher power?