Sunday, July 18, 2010


Well its official I am 31! Woo.
Whats the point of a birthday?

Saturday, June 19, 2010


Well... I have lost my 4th job in 3 years this time (I was really laid off) I am pretty sure I will no longer be talking to my parents anymore and I feel like I can't do a thing right. All I can really say is sigh.
I have no question today.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

I have lost it......AGAIN

For those who know me this is nothing new. I got laid off. I have 2 more weeks of work then I have too start over yet again. What has me pissed is that society has lost its way. I blame libertarians and tea baggers. Humans are not solitary creatures we depend on each other to survive and grow. We should not be trying to hold on to our jobs. I think we should think about how we as a group can get through the hard economic times.
That is all GRRRRR!

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Its been awhile

So it has been a while since I last blogged. I guess I have not really had a lot to say. I have been filled with regret about how I have handled things in my past but, those thoughts are a normal day for me in my head. I have been thinking a lot about life and what makes a life good and what makes life bad. Its a strange thing to start breaking down how you have lived and trying to quantify it like that is almost impossible. I guess its the classic question about the chicken or the egg. Do you make life good or does life make it good.
Something that did get my attention the other day was the question of what is a good solution to a problem? Should we always react to a problem with what we see as the most obvious solution? I tend to think the most obvious solution has gotten us into trouble. I think we see things to black and white and the older I get the more gray I began to see.
I there an absolute truth?

Sunday, May 9, 2010

What do you mean this comes to an end?!

It has been a while since my last post. The family has been dealing with many issues mostly relating to our dogs Bonnie and Mingus. Bonnie has a urinary track infection and hookworms. Mingus has broken through a window and has some kind of rash that we have to take him in for. Along with that I put up a new fence with the help from my friend Al and I am in a new band called Echo Bubble.
We had my folks over last night for Mothers day and I got smacked with mortality. My parents persented me with their wills and health directives. It was a comfort and scary at the same time. It made me think about my own life and, how I will die some day. VERY SCARED OF DEATH! I would make a deal to live for ever if that really was an option. The thought of just not being anymore freaks me out.
All these thoughts about death and life brought me back to one thing music. I started thinking about how music has changed me and, how certain albums make me think about my life. One of those albums is "Blood on the tracks" by Bob Dylan. I feel like every song on that album makes sense to me and, certain times in my life. I have felted like I needed shelter from the storm and, needed comfort from a women. I have also thought about how life is has just been a simple twist of fate for me. I think everyone can relate to these themes but, they really hit home for me. I have a couple of other albums that I feel that strong about but, I will not be posting them all today.
With all these thoughts I have thought about what I want when I give up my ghost. Mostly silliness. A side bar I'm not planning on dieing for the next 40 years or more so everyone needs to just relax. I have just been thinking about it lately. I can't decide between "ride it big and tall" or "You can't say I didn't try" for my head stone. Both funny and both very much me. The other quote I think I will use for my autobiography and that would be "Tired and Horny" The Tony story. I made a joke the other day about how I want to be stuffed and movable like an action figure when I die. I think that it would be funny if I had a motion sensor in me that would trigger "I won't back down" by Tom Petty every time you walked by my stuffed body. I think that would be hilarious! Maybe its a little sick but, a little funny.

How would you like to be remembered?

Saturday, April 17, 2010


Sunday, April 4, 2010

Easter and other thoughts on a Sunday Morning.

So it is Easter and I am at work. This in is not a bad thing or a good thing it is just a thing. This is the first Easter that I can remember that was not planned or talked about before hand. Its kind of nice. Easter makes me wonder about religion and life. Granted I am not a scholar on the subject but, the major religions seem so close together. I find it hard not to think that each religion is a variation on a theme. The theme being basically the Golden rule do on to others that you would like to have done to you. So why is that people feel the need to kill each other because some one was a prophet and one things he was god. How can you identify god? I still have the belief that Jesus was a pot smoking hippie that decided to help people and, because he was so open and loving to all people got scared and killed him. I really have a hard time with this idea that we as humans can recognize god. I just feel like the way that we see god is when we die.
Do you believe in a higher power?

Friday, March 26, 2010

Its a sad day!

A teenager did not who CAKE WAS!!!!!! SIGH getting old.

Thursday, March 25, 2010


So I have been thinking about my life and what I would of done differently. I know that the right response to the question is that I would not have done anything I can't honestly say that. I think I would have done a ton of things differently. What I am not sure of is that if I made these changes I am not sure that it would change anything.
What is regret?
and yes I have been watching to much lost.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Have you ever done spring on WEEEED?

So I was leaving the Childrens theater where I work and as I was going to my car when I was hit by a familiar smell. This smell reminds me of concerts,college and a place that I used to live. I look over in the car right next to me which was a brand new v dub was a middle age man smoking a jay. This man was totally an accountant by day stoned dad by night. He got freaked out when he noticed that I was parked right next to him. He hid everything and went in side hoping that I did not see him. All I could do was laugh at him. Poor guy just trying to get ready to go to his kids play and I had to mock him. I felt bad because he did not realize that the guy that caught him was so used to seeing and smelling that drug it was no big deal.
This incident got me thinking who are we kidding Weed is already legal and out there why don't we just put it on the books? It has become such a part of our culture accounts are doing it. Come on let the middle age dude smoke in peace.

Thursday, March 18, 2010

Boudoir Photos really?

So I know I have been behind in the blogging but, I intend to make this up. I have many friends that are photographers so I hope that I don not offend but, what the fuck is the appeal of paying for boudoir pictures to give to your partner? I just don't get it couldn't you spend that money on something else? I mean maybe some naughty underwear for example. I think it is just stupid "No honey I don't want to see you naked and have sex with you. I'm to busy looking at your mostly clothed body in some what sexy positions." REALLY!?! I also think that it is lame that young couples would want to do this. This lame trick is for people who have been married for like thirty years and going into the age where they are (for the most part) sexually obsolete.
Why does being sexy matter so much to us?

Friday, March 5, 2010

Maybe its just a guy thing.

Do you ever get so mad that you want to kick something or,punch something as hard as you can?

Thursday, March 4, 2010

Not really sure what to do with myself

I am happy and content....Its VERY STRANGE! Sure I could use more money and maybe health insurance but beside those things I am doing pretty well. This is the longest that I have felt this feeling in a long time.
The question of the day is:
What is compromise to you?

Friday, February 26, 2010


So I just found out about "Flexitrianism" ARE YOU KIDDING ME! I think labeling things or over labeling things turns me off to any cause or movement. Why can't people just be people? No we have to be Indie, veagans ,rockers, wasps, womps, n-words, white trash, hippie ,yuppie, WHO CARES! I am not saying that do not use this labeling system but, It has gotten me thinking about labeling and I think it has gone to far.
I think the need to label things creates radicals. I think that the category itself makes people live to the extreme of the categoery. If you are christion its not enough to live a good life you have to judge and bring as many people into the group as possible. If you are vegan but eat honey you are wait for it..... A BEEGAN REALLY!!!??? If you are a an artist you have to starve for you art and when you have commercial success you are a sell out. The older that I get the chances of life being an illusion sound more plausible to me then anything else and with that in mind then for me the thought that you have to be everything that a category tells you that you are is absurd. I think you can be a vegan and have honey once in a while I think you can be a musician and have a stable family and a home. I think that you can be a stripper and be a smart feminist at the same time.
I will you leave you with one of the best quotes of 2009 by Brother Ali "There is no you or me only us" At least I think that's how it goes you get the jist
Al keep it short!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Sunday mornings.

I love Sunday mornings. I love them so much that I don't mind that I am at work during them. There is something about Sundays they seem to just move slower. It feels like everyone is just calm and peaceful. I think it is because we all grew up with this thought that Sunday is time for family, big meals, and getting ready for the next week. I find that I am very optimistic and by Friday I hate life. Anyway I am very grateful for Sundays and the feeling they give me.

Can everything be explained by logic and science?


Friday, February 19, 2010

That's what you get.

My friend Evan and I used to play madden all the time. We have played so much that I would try to do these out of the box moves to trick him and of course they would back fire and that would be the game.After every time that I would do that he would say that's what you get well Tiger that's what you get.
I really don't care that Tiger Woods cheated what really pisses me off is that he acted like he was above it all. When you put yourself on that type of pedestal you will fall and it will be fantastic just ask the christian right. I don't care if you screw every female on earth and snort blow but, recognize that you are human. Don't say I am a virgin I am looking at you Britteny spears or don't say that homosexuality is a sin I am looking at all Evangelical ministers that bash the gay community then find them selves in a a gay bar trying to get some ass for the night. I really wish that people would realize that life is a one shot deal that may or may not be real. Why pick on people who differ from your life style choice. Their are somethings that are just over the top my point is if you find yourself in the public eye admit that you are human once in a while then maybe the fall might not be so hard.

Why do people care about what other people think of them?

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

I am sick of.....

You name it I am sick of it. I am sick of dogs, cats,politics,music, everything. I need a week or a weekend to re coupe and re asses. I am sick of people who say they are struggling but, then have a huge TV in their house or do more drugs then scare face. I am just sick of it.

Why do humans have the need to help?

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Corporate Love day and Fostering Dogs.

So today is Corporate love day. I hate this for the simple fact that it seems that we need a store to reminds us how lucky we are that some of us have found love. Boooo I hope that I let my wife no everyday that I love her deeply. Also just because you are single does not make you a lesser person. I hate this day.

My wife and I began fostering dogs for a no kill shelter. Our first dog lasted one night because he was a dream. His name was Buck he did not jump on people sat like a champ and played ball like a champ. He was adopted within 2 hours of being at his adoption day. We got Judie last night who is built like a brick shit house. She is about 80 lbs. has no fat on her. She is super sweet but, hates Mingus and has a growler that would make superman pee himself. We think she is Half lab and Saint Bernard. So this dog who should scare people by sheer looks is scared to death by me. If I have something in my hand she runs up stairs. Luckily she loves my wife and is connected to her at her hip. The only bad part of this is that if she is with my wife she has to OK you before you get to her. She is getting better with Mingus and me but, It will be some work. So the point is if you want a dog to take your frustration out on.....SCREW YOU and tell me your address and, you can try it on a human. This makes me so mad all a dog wants is to be part of a pack and to be loved if you can't provide that then don't take on a dog.

Whats a Brick shit house?


Friday, February 12, 2010

Yet another Blog!

So I think that I was given a goldfish brain. I seem to be interested in twitter, blogging, and a bunch of other things for only about a week then I slide back into my loafer routine. Not this time my friends I vow today that I will try to at least post two post a week for a year. Why you ask? Just to prove to myself that I can. If you are here for masterful pros keep on walking but, if you want to see a average Joe flop and struggle and fail at the game of life then this blog is for you. I will try to post a question at he end of each post just to get you thinking out there.
The question for today.
Why is that people train for years to do a certain job and once they have obtained that job they feel the need to bitch about it? In other words why can't we just be happy?